I am currently on spring break at one of the most beautiful places I have ever been! My three friends and I are having such a sweet time together! But, tucked away in the back of my mind is graduating. In two months I will be receiving my diploma, leaving college, and beginning a whole new journey. It is exciting, sad, and scary. I have been recognizing that this week I have been attacked with feelings of defeat and fear. God has called me into Christian Artistry and leading me in Conference and Church ministry. The problem is, I am not good enough, I am not brave enough, I am too much of a homebody, I am anxious, I am an amateur, and the list goes on. My friend told me last night that God used Gideon to accomplish His tasks, even though he was afraid and had doubts.
Today I read through Judges 6 which is when God called Gideon. Judges 6:14-16 says, “And the Lord turned to him and said, “Go in this might of yours and save Israel from the hand of Midian; do not I send you?” And he said to him, ‘Please, Lord, how can I save Israel? Behold, my clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father’s house.” And the Lord said to him, “But I will be with you, and you shall strike the Midianites as one man.'” Many times, especially lately, I feel so inadequate and believe that I am not capable of being used in great ways for the Lord. When I look at Gideon, he was uncertain of his own abilities, but also God’s. How many times do we doubt that the Lord is really THE LORD who created the universe, who breathes life into us and accomplishes more than we can ask or imagine?
I am weak and just another person, but I serve the Lord Jesus and with Him all things are possible! If He desires to use me for His purposes that seem to grand for a simple young woman like me, then so be it! I want to encourage each of you with the truth that God is on our side and even when we feel like Gideon and see how small we are, may we neve forget how BIG God is!