This morning I was reading in Exodus 4. This is kind of like training camp for Moses before he returns to Egypt. Throughout the chapter God gives him instructions on the miracles that He will perform through Moses. After already seeing the Lord turn his rod into a snake and give his hand leprosy and heal it, Moses said “O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.” (Ex. 4:10) Moses voiced his doubt and fear to the Lord. He was not confident in public speaking. God proceeded to respond, “So the Lord said to him, ‘Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the LORD? Now therefore, go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say.” (Ex. 4:11-12)
This conversation could have ended here. Moses could have gone on and obeyed the Lord and been used in a way that he would have never expected. But instead, Moses replied, “O my Lord, please send by the hand of whomever else You may send.” (Ex. 4:13) Moses pleaded with God not to be used. He asked for an alternate path. He begged God to use someone else. Yikes! If this does not scare you, I do not know what else will! When I think about times that I ask God to use someone else, I know that there are many. The times I do not “feel” like praying for someone, or the times I ask God to not make me go out of my comfort zones are endless. There are times of obedience and faith, but I am imperfect just like Moses. The worst part is that God was going to be glorified greatly through Moses’ weakness, but Moses was unwilling to glorify God in this way because of his own insecurities. 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, “But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
Lately, I have been seeing a lot of my weaknesses. It is easy just to wish they did not exist. But, maybe I am making excuses like Moses? Maybe God wants to use my weaknesses to glorify Him! The sweet part is that when we are unreliable, God provides another way. “So the anger of the LORD was kindled against Moses, and He said: “Is not Aaron the Levite your brother? I know that he can speak well. And look, he is also coming out to meet you. When he sees you, he will be glad in his heart.” (Ex. 4:14) My prayer is that God does not have to provide another way for His name to be honored and that He can use us. I ask that we would have willing hearts to trust God and not come up with excuses. The Father has good things for us! This does not mean that we are always happy and that circumstances are constantly comfortable, but it does mean that He deserves glory every day and that we should pray to have the strength to obey His voice.